A Year and a Week
I am currently a year and a week into college, but somehow everything seems brand new. The campus feels unfamiliar and there’s something I’ve never seen before everyday. Last year, I was surrounded by other Musical Theatre students, where we all had almost the exact same schedule. This means same classes, same breaks, and same rehearsals. The entire year was basically a bubble of the same ten friends, who had all of the same classes and the same homework. There were pros and cons to this, and a lot of things I took for granted. This year, I’m taking classes where I don’t know anybody. Usually meeting people would be easy for me, but for some reason I feel shy and nervous. Sitting in a class nervous and quiet, and I’m not usually a nervous or quiet person. Me and my roommate were two of only four freshman in our dorm building last year, but now basically everyone else in our hall is also a sophomore. So why is it so hard to make new friends? I have my friends at the end of the hall, but I so desperately want to meet new people. I know there’s clubs and other things like that, but with Covid last year I never got the opportunity to do that. I guess I’ve made a few new friends this week and maybe I need to give myself time. With Covid, I also never got to perform in any live shows, which is a big part of what I came to school to do. The audition process for musical theatre programs is so long and rigorous, but I somewhat miss the rush of having to audition. We filmed all of our shows, so getting back into it for a live audience should be very interesting. So many things were missed out on last year, which makes this year even more scary and exciting. I don’t want to waste my opportunities and I’m trying to soak everything in. It feels like I’ve been here for ages, even tho it’s only been a week, while simultaneously feels like my mom just dropped me off last year. Starting Monday, I’ll be in rehearsals everyday until October, so hopefully this is just first week nerves and soon enough I’ll be so busy I won’t even have time to worry.
Hi Olivia! I'm sorry that this week and transitioning back to school has been difficult. As one of these ten friends who was in a very similar situation last year, I can agree that this year has felt different. Give yourself time to adjust again - we've been gone for 3 months! You are doing great and if you just take one day at a time, you will see that it is going to feel better very soon. I can attest to the fact that staying busy makes you forget about the nervousness, so I am sure that daily rehearsals will be helpful!
ReplyDeleteAw Olivia it will get better! I also had a very hard time making friends but I promise you it'll end up getting better. You will find friends who you can see being around your entire life. As I starting working either at the school or down in lima, I have seen some of the best friendships. Just the other day I met two wonderful women who were each others maids of honor over 20 years ago, they still keep in contact and meet up a few times a year just to see each other have have little fun adventures.
ReplyDeleteI can agree with you that this year has felt a little different to me. I am not exactly sure what it is but I personally feel like it is different for the better. I am a relatively social person and I don't know many people in my classes so it helps me branch off more and make new friends. Now with Covid restrictions relaxing a little bit I have the opportunity to meet more people. The campus has definitely changed from last year and I think for the better.
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